All Gone Now..

2009-08-03T15:27:00.022+08:00

Festival

2009-08-01T01:53:00.002+08:00

I'm off to Melacca very early later for a festival.

*i think*

So yah.
Don't miss me aite.
Will update once i get back.

See ya around.

P.S. dirty jeans,playsuit and coffee

jusqu'à alors

Updated

2009-07-28T23:46:00.002+08:00

I've not been updating.
Yes i know.
Sorry aite.
Been really busy lately.

Work and training.
Plus did a performance for IG.
Training was fun with the cliques.
Performance was ok lah.
Not so bad lah.

Help the guys with ice bath today.
Pity them all.
Was pushed damn hard lah.
But it all come for a good cause.

Well gonna sleep now.
Working tomorrow.
Shall update more next time aite.
Promise with my heart.

P.S. two peas in a pod

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Too Far

2009-07-20T22:52:00.002+08:00

I had enough!
You've made it worst now.
WE planned to just forget what you had done.
But you can't just simply shut your trap.

Haiz.

Its just simple, you could just end it there.
But no, you had to prolong the whole thing.
And even tell others the half truth.
I'll let the others ask me about this.
I just don't want to spoil anything.
But you push the button too far.
WAY TO FAR!!!!

You really dissapoint me.
Call yourself a friend.
You're a friend indeed.
Thanks alot.

To the others.
Ask me about it aite.
Don't just hear to one story.
Be sure of what you're listening and to whom you listen too.

I'm out.

P.S. im just hoping that you gave a chance.

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Sorry

2009-07-17T18:53:00.002+08:00

I havent been updating.
Been really really busy.
Work and stuff has had been hectic.

People talk behind our backs here and there.
There's no way we could hide from it.
Despite know that we help them.
Haix.
Forgive once or twice is ok lah.
But it was the third time.
Will we forgive again??
Haix.

People just don't realise when we are to nice to them.
Haix.
I believe that people WILL change.
And i also believe that certain things are better off unsaid.
Haix.
Why seh.
I disappointed.
Really.
And don't put words in my mouth.
I did not tell the anyone to ignore you.
They all knew how you were.
I even told them to be normal to you.
DAMN!!!
I dont want to rake up what i've done for you.

You pushed me too far this time round.
I'm trying my best to just forgive and forget.
Bare it in that thick head of yours.
Haix.

Don't try to mess this up.
I had it.
Stop the nonsence that you have created.
You have problems with me, then come to me.
Dont get others involve.
If i want to take the person, it would not be now.
It would have been a long long time ago.
Such a loser!!

And to the rest.
Don't assume anything.
Ask if you don't know.
Don't just judge by what you read.
Or you think it is obvious.
I have had proven it ready.
So go and check first.

I'm outz.

P.S im so down by your actions. but i still have the inspiration to make my day.

jusqu'à alors

Knife-ing

2009-07-08T11:51:00.002+08:00

We, humans, really tend to forget what we need.
We always go the ones which we want.
And we always end up having regrets and sort.

Sometimes we just do something even though we know i would be painful.
Sometimes we just neglect the people who are close to us.
Everyone will face it.

But sometimes it's pushing really hard.
We do things for the person we like/love without them knowing what we feel for them.
And end up we are in pain.
The knife thru the heart feeling.

*Maaakkkk!! Painful per!!*

But yah.
We do all this things.
Just to see them putting that smile on their face.
Sometimes it's just their smile which will make your day.
I swear it does to me.

Working later.
Today will be at MMI@Phoenix Rd.
Took a class for the first time yesterday.
Kanchiong burger seh.
I was very paniky lah.
But yeah i still have room for improvement.
And i will improve.

Gonna get ready now.
Be good.

P.S. have fun.i cant be there.forgive me.

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RANT!!!!

2009-07-06T23:56:00.003+08:00

The day passed quite fast today.
Was at MMI in Ten Mile Junction today.
Then took a bus to SCOE.
Its quite a distant lah.
One and a half hour in the bloody stuffy bus.
Made my ass sore.
But it paid off lah when i alighted.
Hahahaha.
*winks*

Tomorrow will be at Tamp Central CC.
So yah.
Lucky and not so lucky lah.
Lucky is that its in the afternoon, so can sleep a bit longer and nearer to SCOE.
The not so lucky part is that, i wouldn't be online lah.
So yah.

Good luck to those who sitting for their exams.
The pigeons will bring you luck.

Going off to bed now.
See ya guys around.
Be good.

P.S the smile on your face.the long talks.

jusqu'à alors

home!!

2009-07-05T23:01:00.002+08:00

THE WHOLE DAY AT HOME

IM SO BORED!!!

P.S. I hope you'd call.

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Painful

2009-07-04T13:32:00.003+08:00

Why should i tell someone what to do?
And help that angel out?
While im hurting much here.
Felt the piercing thru this soft heart of mine.
Hmmmmm.
Sometimes people just do anything.
And i dunno why im doing this.

Like what Dimples said to me, "Hmm. Makkk. Painful pe."
Hahaha.
It's always fun talking to Dimples.
Only she understands.
Ahakx.

Work has been fun.
There will always be something new everyday.
The kids and the staff jokes.
They keep asking me, "We will wait till Dzul break under his own shell."
Im a quiet guy lah.
Buahahhahahahaha.
As if lah.
Im not okay.
*evil smile*

And now trainings.
have not been going due to work and stuff.
FYI, im not in the team for the whole year cause im in NS for the first quarter of the year.
And ive told the Big Man.
And he said its ok and told me to join back in after my NS.
But is it so hard for the other one to sink this in those bloddy thick skull of his.
Arrogant ass.
Fuck this favourism in the team and stuff.
Too many secrets going around.
And its getting annoying.

Up yours bitch!!!

I had talks with a few and they said the same thing.
Its not like last time.
Where everyone is the same.
No matter where you've been or anything.
We're all still the same.
ARGH!!
Don't care ready.
I'll just do what i have to.
This is specifically meant for Pornstar and Teaser.
You guys keep to your words and i'll do the same.
Plus, you guys are the one who will make this happen.

People!
You've read it.
And please don't judge or assume aite.
This is where i rant my heart out.
And please dont pass this around.
I trust you guys.
And i know if you do.
So please.
Its all bout trust aite.

P.S. You're smile is the best thing which has happen to me.

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KiddieWinkie

2009-07-02T18:44:00.003+08:00

His name is Hedeito.

Her name is Sakura.

Class was owesome today with the KiddieWinkie kids.

Love those kids.

And the two pics are somewhat i promised last week.

More is to come aite.

Tomorrow will be at NUS @ 1400hrs.

These two was sticking by me through out their class.

Sakura was the one closer to me then Hedeito.

Must be Sakura lah.

Haha.

*chuckles*

Im outs.

Wanna eat now.

Be good.

*loves*

P.S Missing.Love.Deeply.Swear.

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Pigeons

2009-07-02T00:00:00.002+08:00

Working in the morning tomorrow.
At Cairnhill CC.
Wanna get my sleep now.
Too tired today.

Cayenne had her ops today.
Hope she has a speedy recovery.
I'll be around to help.
Take care aite dearest.

Good luck to all who is/will be sitting for their exams.
I'll pray to the pigeons to bring you luck.
*chuckles*

P.S i'm waiting

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Class

2009-06-30T22:25:00.003+08:00

Class was good.
Pretty sleepy for the first half cos it was a lecture.
DUH!!!

After lunch was quite okay.
Did a few types of somersaults.
Which i got no problem with lah.
Its was fun laughing at the rest of the colleagues.
And obviously!!!
Laughed at the girls who can't do a certain roll.
Some smacked their faces on the mat.
It was really funnay lah.

Tomorrow will be at AGAPE CCK at 1400hrs.
So yah.
Will try to be online before that lah.
Im just hoping that something will make my day tomorrow.
*chuckles*

P.S. Missing Beyonce loads. Felt the emptiness.

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On-Course

2009-06-29T18:07:00.002+08:00

Weekends was damn tiring.
Lucky got a little something which kept me going.
And im all smiles yah.
*winks*
Performed for the closing last evening.
Received a huge applaud by the audiences.
So proud of the team.

But after that, it was a hell load of loading an unloading from the infamous Trolley.
From BSH back to SCOE.
The tiredness is so cannot tashan lah.

And TODAY!!!!!!
I was on course lah till tomorrow.
Didnt get enough sleep.
Was kinda sleepy at first but managed to pul through till lunch.
But the killer started after lunch.

I was like half awake and started seeing double.
And yah.
It was a terrible feeling lah.
Head pain-ing lah seh.
It took me to my wits to keep my eyes open, so did the rest of the guys.
Hahaha.
And i tot i was the only one.
Learned alot about Gym Kidz.
The philosophy, how it started, what the kids would do, special needy kids, etc.

Im sure gonna sleep damn early tonite.
Got to have the rest i need.
Hahaha.

Im outz now.
Be good.

P.S. Trust.Promise.Waiting.Missing.Falling.

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impatient

2009-06-27T00:53:00.002+08:00

Too tired today.
Work was good.
But yah.
Hmmmm.
Kids were cool.
Tomorrow is the day.
*winks*
Shall update on Sunday aite.

Be good. Keep your eyes to yourself.

P.S. Missing.Impatient.Love.Deep.

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WORK HAS COMMENCE!!!!

2009-06-26T01:01:00.004+08:00

Wednesday.

I did what i promise to Ayid.

And i still one more for Aji.

Went interview earlier that day at CCK for this coy named Gym Kidz.

Got accepted and was told to come for a trail the next day to see if im interested in this field.

And i was telling myself,

"What!!! And why would i want to come for this bloody interview?"

I love kids!!

Thats why i decided to go for the interview.

So yah, i put all that ego down and just smiled and said ok.

For one second i tot i was a hypocrite.

Hahaha.

Thursday.

Got back at 6am.

Sleep abit then woke up at 11am.

Prepared to get to work at 1pm and its a Cainhill CC at Newton.

*if thats spelt correctly*

And.

The class was superb lah.

3 sessions.

Most of the kids were Japanese and Expats.

Cute lah seh when they start talking to each other.

They are so into each other.

They look in your eyes when they talk.

And the worst part is that they have those puppy eyes.

GOD!!!

Ultra adorable ah.

It was my first day and two kids were like already close to me.

One of them is Yamoto and the other is Genki.

Hahaha.

Before going off they come to me and hugged tite and kissed on my cheek.

Ahakx.

Super cute.

Seriously.

I'll post their pics if i get their pics aite.

As for now, i need to sleep.

Working at 2pm at Bukit Batok.

And i'll try to be online before that.

*smiles*

P.S. Missing. Deeply. I'll make this happen.

Trust.Promise

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No poems

2009-06-24T00:38:00.005+08:00

No poems today.
Too tired ready.
Having interview tomorrow.
So yah.
Gonna sleep soon.

P.S. Your smell still lingers.
It made me miss you even more. *loves*
Hope to hear from you before my interview.

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You

2009-06-23T01:11:00.006+08:00

I'm not scared to love you.

I'm okay when your around.

You've given my heart a soundtrack.

I happen to like the sound.

I feel like I can tell you anything.

And you don't judge me for it.

You just look at me with your perfect smile.

And make my heartbeat skip.

If I didn't know better, id say you love me back.

Although I know you don't, I really wish you did.

You make me see things different.

I feel just like a kid.

I'm glad we're getting closer.

But my feelings will most-likely burst.

I tend to pick the wrong girls.
I feel as though I'm cursed.

2315hrs

220609

Earlier today sent Cayenne to Woodlands Polyclinic to get her forearm x-ray.

And it resulted that she fractured her arm.

Hahaha.

Told her ready.

Cos the swelling is not subsiding since 4 weeks back.

So yah.

The Doc referred her to NUH for further analysis with an Orthopeadic.

Dat was done.

Then me and Cayenne met up with Wak Kilat, Smoovie and Pernicious.

Went to City Hall and to link up with Pornstar and Inna Montana.

So along the way, i told the guys that my gut feeling tells me that Dimple is with Pornstar.
And yah.

My gut was right.

Hahaha.

But Dimple didnt join us though.

As she was to meet Sakura Misaki and Mamibu at Bedok.

They going out to eat or something.

We went to Raffles City and window shop.

Cos Smoovie wanted to to buy a new pair of slippers and jeans.
So yah.
But we ended up at Party City cos Cayenne wanted to buy some candy.
And i ended up buying two chocolates for myself

Then we headed to Marina Square.

Smoovie bought himself a new pair of slippers at Fourskin and a pair of jeans at Rip Curl.

And i bought myself a new LANYARD.

Wuuhuuuu!!!

And we went Seoul Garden to have our fab dinner.

Thanks to Smoovie for the nice dinner.
Appriciate it alot lah.
Hahaha.

Otw home, we went to HMV at City Links' branch since its along the way.

Bought a DVD.

Cos me and Pornstar missed it on OKTO the last time.

Its Les Choristes.

So gonna watch it tonite by all means.

So yah.

Then we head home.

Thats for the day.

P.S. BEYONCE! BEYONCE! BEYONCE!

I MISS YOU LAH SEH!!!

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PSK FEVER!!!!

2009-06-21T01:30:00.003+08:00

PSK is on. Updates will be tomorrow aite.

Congrates to all.

Best Wishes on the next round.

P.S. Miss my 'Beyonce'. Deeply

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Fears

2009-06-19T23:55:00.001+08:00

The fear of rejection was stoppin me, but I don't have the time to waste,
These immense secret should be told in a haste
Things lately have been kinda crazy,
but there's no denyin it as I want you to be by me.

I wanna be the one you talk about to your friends as the one you're lovin,
The one you can run to, the one you can confide in.
I wanna be the one to keep you warm when its cold,
And to give you a hand to hold.

Someone to depend on when life gets rough,
When your not here, pictures and dreams aren't just enough.
Sometimes I cant find the words to describe how you are to me,
and don't disagree, cause i'm all for u whole heartedly.

I wanna be the one to loosen the cuffs when they too tight,
I'm the one that will have you smiling from the break of dawn till late night.

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"Sometimes you win sometimes you lose"

I was in the bus just now when i composed this.
So yah.
Hmmmmmm.
Tired due to the setting up today.

I wanna catch a movie.
Told Sakura Misaki yesterday.
And guess what.
She watched a movie lah just now.
Darn!!
Heart shattering seh.

I'm so gonna watch a movie soon.
Hmmmmm.
And someone still owe me a date.
*chuckles*

PSK starting tomorrow.
Please do come and support our local sport aite.
Bubye. Be good. Take care.

P.S. I'm trying to adapt to it. Im sorry if i made you mad.
I hope it goes a long way.

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Poetic Bore

2009-06-19T01:25:00.003+08:00

How do I mend a broken heart?
My entire world has fallen apart.
How do I find hope in a brand new day,
when the one I desire has gone away?

My mind overflows with memories of you,
of all that we've shared, all that we knew.
I long for your touch and your warm embrace,
the look in your eyes, the smile on your face.

When did my feelings get so deep,
Why did they take that big leap.
Going from friend to crush,
What a rush.

Since when did her smile make me go weak,
Since when did her smile make my day peak.
Why does this happen when I'm always so strong,
When i think all my troubles are gone.

Now that I've said it with this poetic bore
I hope she know, and does not ignore..

0115hrs
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P.S. I hope ypu're doing fine out there without me,
Cause im not doing so good without you...

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Complete These With Me..

2009-06-18T01:22:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder how I feel for you,
Scared of these feelings because it’s still new
I catch myself thinking of the best way to share,
Hoping you’ll return my confession showing you care

And then I catch myself again… and drag my thoughts back to reality
I am back at square one, does this just happens to me?

Poems are so stupid I swear I would never do this
But this is YOU, and you aren’t like anyone I have met
How much longer do I have to write, can I tell you yet?
When I come back from my thoughts I feel more secure
But then I sleep… and I dreamt of you.

The dreams I had are so vivid and clear
I felt true happiness and that there's nothing to fear
People say dreams have meanings and not to be ignored
We both know what they meant and now I want you to hear
And complete these together with me...

0103hrs
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My Heart Aches For You..

2009-06-17T01:43:00.006+08:00

Without your presence..
I ain't complete..
Yearning for your very essence..
For it..
My heart will rapidly beat...

Tossing..
Turning..
I just can't seem to sleep..
Desire to give all you seek..
Reckoning your beauty makes me weak....

Waiting each day..
In anticipation..
Wanting..
Only an hour or two..
Perhaps..
Just a second in time..
To feel...
To catch just a glimpse of you...

Thoughts of you..
Illuminates my spirit..
As my lips quiver..
With words i shall never speak....

Messages that puts a smile on my face..
Leaving me wanting to be in your embrace....

Your essence..
Enlightens the darkness of my lonely night...
Awakening senses..

Enthralled to a new height.....

0016hrs

170609

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I Think I Love You

2009-06-16T00:35:00.005+08:00

"We've been together less than a week
But I swear it seems like two years at least,
Whether face to face or over the phone,
When I hear your voice,
I'm right at home
Your so beautiful, more than a man could ever want
Got me lookin' for, cameras to see if I'm getting punk'd
Tryin' to take it slow, ain't now sense in lying to me, or to myself

I know it's early, I know it's soon
But truth be told, I think I love u
It's unexpected, out of the blue
But I gotta let you know
That I think I love u

The way you touch me,
The way you look,
Everything about you is so sexy
You do your own thing
You got your own money
Everything about you is so damn (it's so damn) beautiful.
Your so beautiful, more than a man could ever want
Got me lookin' for Ashton to see if I'm getting punk'd
Ain't no since in lying to you
Or to myself"
Dwele - I Think I Love You

I need to thank my dearest Smoovie for telling me bout this song.
Haha.
The lyrics cool lah seh.
Thank you thank you thank you.

Went cycling today.
From SCOE to Pasir Ris Park and then back to SCOE.
Smoovie brought Baby G.
Pornstar brought Sally.
And I brought Old Mans' Tracy Baby.
Hahaha.
Dun get it wrong ek.
Thats the names of the bikes lah.
Ahakx.

Met Inna Montana and siblings there.
Sumone's freaking happy lah kan. Apparently!
Hmmmmm.
And yah, Im just freaking happy for them lah.
To see my friend being blissful just makes my day lah.
Hmmmm.
Wish both of you the best aite.

Am i really that nice??
Hmmmmm.
Maybe i didnt realise it.
But am i??
Still thinking bout it ah.
And who looks like who??
Haiya.
Cant get it out of my mind uh.
hmmmm.

My legs are tired now.
But i get better tomorrow.
And i have a match at 5pm.
So yah.
Gonna turn in soon.

See ya soon. Be good. Keep your eyes to yourself.

P.S Life's a game of chance. Whatever ah, pape ah. hahahaa.

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First Love

2009-06-15T00:59:00.004+08:00

"Heyy heyyyy
Baby I can't even front sometimes I have days
Where I really miss your love and it drives me crazy
To see you in the arms of another man, livin out ya plans
Plans that we made together

Such a shame
We ended up this way
Deciding that we're better off with others
So if he gives you something I can't
Girl I'm ok with that
Cause at the end of the day
All I have to say is

Girl your my heart
You could be with him for life
That don't change the fact that I'm your first love
And I'm so sureI could date another girl and more
That don't change the fact that your my first love"
Trey Songz - First Love

You're running in my mind.

P.S Where's my 'Beyonce'?? *sobs*

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Torn

2009-06-14T04:08:00.002+08:00

"I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldnt be that man I adored
You dont seem to know, dont seem to care what your heart is for
But I dont know him anymore
Theres nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
Thats whats going on, nothings fine Im torn

Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, Im already torn"
Natalie Imbruglia - Torn

Great day today.
Paid a visit to my Yayi with Family at Tampines.
Then follow Old Man to watch IVP.
But just for a while cos i had to attend to an OBLIGATION at Hougang.

After that was done, went out for a NENG NYNO session.
And its quiet a big group.

Not following in order.
LutotBengkok, Pornstar, Pernicious, Smoovie, Wak Kilat, Cayenne, Dimples, Inna Montana and Sakura Misaki.

And yah i did went well.
Hope that they tak 'Serik' ah.
Hahaha.
It was full of loud laughters and enjoyment.
Everything was a topic to talk about.

So yah, there's no difference between Silat and Tarian.
We're all the same.
Hahaha.
I mean, we mix well with others.
Although i cant hear any voice from her..(you know who you are)
*chuckles*
Yah it was fun ah.
Shall be another outing together again.
Hmmmmm.

Then i met up with Faizal.
Had another round at Arab St.
But now with all his frens.
And yah we mixed well.
They're all very easy going and social.
So easy to mix with lah.
It was a bunch of cool people.

Overall, the whole was superb.
Enjoyed myself alot.
But 'Beyonce' keeps on running in my mind.
Hmmmmm.

And yah.
I wouldnt be online later aite.
So yah pls do drop your IM on my MSN aite.
Gonna be out early in the morning.
So yah. :'(

P.S. Although i enjoyed myself, i kehnot forget you. 'Beyonce'
Reign my mind and heart. *hugs*

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The Way I Do

2009-06-13T05:30:00.002+08:00

"Your kiss, your smile, your mind
You're sunlight in my eyes
I miss your breath on my neck
When we whisper in the night

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I can't fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.
Your touch, your skin, can't believe the way you let me in
Don't rush tonight, I need you like the ocean needs the tide."
Marcos Hernandez - The Way I Do

Bored sia.
Went out with siblings plus Lily and two of her mates.
Went to Orchard jek.
Then back home.

P.S. I miss her. I need her.
Trust.Promise.

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Security.Serenity

2009-06-12T14:05:00.001+08:00

I only need 'Beyonce' now.

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Dangerously In Love

2009-06-11T23:08:00.003+08:00

"I love you.

Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness
I can't overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the sea
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up world.

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me."
Beyonce - Dangerously In Love

Actually, got nothing to blog lah.
*laughing hard*
Did the routine, to SCOE and train.
What else!!

Someone is in love lah.

Hahaha.
Wish him luck ah.
Hope whatever he wants, he'll get it.
Hahaha.
I'll pray for you bro and you have my full support.

Gotto run
Keep ur eyes to yourself.

P.S. 'Beyonce' I Miss You.
My heart and mind are running wild for you.

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I Got To Find You

2009-06-11T01:50:00.003+08:00

"Everytime I think I'm closer to the heart
Of what it means to know just who I am
I think I've finally found a better place to start
But no one ever seems to understand

I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be you're not that far?

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
Oh yeah

You're the remedy I'm searchin' hard to find
To fix the puzzle that I see inside
Painting all my dreams the color of your smile
When I find you it will be alright"
Joe Jonas - I got to find you

Today help Cayenne with the padding again.
Just holding it for her is already tiring seh.
Teaser was late today.
But he did msg me lah.
We planned to meet at SCOE at 1800hrs.
I tot when he said that he will be abit late,
it would be 1830 or earlier ah.
BUT, he arrived at abt 1915 ah.
Annoy-ing ah.
Hahah.
But it was all cool.
Did the routine a couple of times and yah, we called it a day.

Went to SCOE with Pernicious and Wak Kilat.
They're always not on time. DUH!!
Grabbed Vadai at the Pasar Malam at Woodlands.
Its quite cheap ah.
4 for $2.
Big sia the vadai, with two prawns.
Its was suppose to be eaten in the long bus ride to Bedok.
But it was all done even before they reach ah.

At the interchange, we chase the bus lah.
Rite after tapping our EzLink, there's this Chinese Chick asking for change.
She was nicely dressed in black.

HOT!!!

So yah, she asked if i have change for $10.
Well apparently i dont lah but i have a few loose change.
And i handed the coins to her.
She took bout a dollar out of my hand.
So this is what i sad to her.

me- Is it enough?? *smile*
her- Yes it is. Thank you so much. *wide smile*
me- Okay. Not a problem. *return smile*

And this is the part where i got shocked.

her- And yah, do you need my number so that i could pay you back whenever? *smile*
me- No its ok, you dont have to pay back. *smiles*

And after that, i was smacking my forehead hard.
I tot i was the only one.
Pernicious and Wak Kilat did the same ah.
So what i heard was true ah.
"Do you need my number"
Haha.
I didnt catch it ah cos one side of my earpiece was in my ear.
And the other thing is that all minds are locked that she dun need to pay back.

And the rest of the bus ride, i was like i didnt believe my ears ah.
Hahaha.
But only one thing came to mind from the start.
'Beyonce'.
Ahakx.
So i was telling myself, I am loyal and will always be loyal to my 'Beyonce'.
Hahah.

So yah.
Everything done.
After training, got home with Old Man and the rest of the Family.
Had dinner at Rase-Rase Restaurant then got home.
Watch Putri Gunung Ledang with siblings.
Then i was caught with a phrase from the movie.

After translation from Malay to English.
"I solemly vow to you, at this very moment. To step on every land you step. And to breathe the air that you breathe"

It was damn touching ah.
Hmmmmm.
I was feeling it.
I mean the show at that part.
How i wish i was 'Hang Tuah' at that part only.
Hahahah.

Klah gonna sleep now.
Its getting late ready.
Keep your eyes to yourself.
Take care.

P.S. 'Beyonce' im still waiting for you aite.
Terribly miss ya. All hearts for you.

jusqu'à alors

Unbelievable

2009-06-10T00:05:00.000+08:00

"Always said I would know where to find love
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough
But sometimes I just felt I could give up
But you came and you changed my whole world now
I'm somewhere I've never been before
Now I see
What word love means

It's so unbelievable
And I don't wanna let it goIts something so beautiful
Flowin down like a waterfall
I feel like you've always been
Forever a part of me
And it's so unbelievable
To finally be in love
Somewhere I never thought I'd be

In my heart in my head it's so clear now
Hold my hand you've got nothin' to fear now
I was lost and you've rescued me somehow
I'm alive I'm in love you complete me
And I've never been here before
Now I see
What word love means"
Craig Davids - Unbelievable

'Regu' was the shit today.
Trained with Pornstar and Teaser.
Guys sorry if i let you both down.
Today was the first.
Im still adapting to it.
I'll make sure that this shit really happens aite.
Thats my promise.

I still dun get it.
Why do some people seem to know more about me than i do myself??
Its annoying lah.
As i said in my previous posts, 'Beyonce' is the girl i dreamt of.
I named the person that cause i dont recognise her in that specific dream.
But it was a very wonderful dream ah.
So yah get it rite aite.
*smacks forehead*

I pity this certain friend of mine.
I really do lah.
Lost all the will to talk.
Haha.
And yet i could still laugh at that friend.
Hmmmmm.
Im sorry if i laugh at you aite.
Dont take it to heart.
TINGTINGTING!!!

And nice of Smoovie to give me the phrase of the day.
Here it goes.

"I've been covering your ass for a long time now. It's time for you to hold my dick as i pee"

How nice of him.
Haha.
And yah SOMEONE just added him on msn.
And when i called him, he said "Aku baru jek nak call kau. ...-... dah add aku on msn."
With a very very happy voice summore.
Annoy-ing siak.

Alrite.
Till here ah.
Pornstar wanna use the lappy lah.
So yah.
Tc people. Keep your eyes to yourself.

P.S. Miss 'Beyonce' deeply.
Been thinking bout you all the time.

jusqu'à alors

The Cupid Effect

2009-06-09T00:08:00.005+08:00

"On my way to see my friends

Who lived a couple blocks away from me

As I walked through the subway

It must have been about a quarter past three

In front of me stood a beautiful honey

With a beautiful body

She asked me for the time

I said it'd cost her her name

A six-digit number and a date with me tomorrow at nine

Did she decline, no

Didn't she mind, I don't think so

Was it for real, damn sure

What was the deal, a pretty girl aged 24

So was she keen, she couldn't wait

Cinnamon queen, let me update

What did she say, she said she'd love to rendezvous

Asked me what we were gonna do

Said we'd start with a bottle of Moet for two

Monday took her for a drink on Tuesday

We were making love by Wednesday

And on Thursday and Friday and Saturday

We chilled on Sunday

Nine was the time 'cos I'll be getting mine and

She was looking fine

Smooth talker, she told me

She'd love to unfold me all night long

Ooh, I loved the way she kicked it

From the front to the back she flipped it

And I, oh-oh, yeah

Hope that she'd care

'Cos I'm a man who'll always be there

Ooh, yeah I'm not a man to play around, babyOoh, yeah'

Cos a one-night stand isn't really fair

From the first impression, girl,

Hmmm, you don't seem to be like that

'Cos there's no need to chat

For there'll be plenty of time for that

From the subway to my home

Endless ringing of my phone

When you're feeling all alone,

All you gotta do is just call me, call me"
Craig Davids - Seven Days

This was the book i saw at Popular.

The Cupid Effect.

Sounds nice right.

Read the top.

"Dare you follow your heart?"

It struck me hard.

Hmmmmm.

And i read the summary, it sound interesting.

And yah definately the word Cupid lah.

Hahaha.

Dear people.

Hahah.

Please do not assume my private life aite.

I have a life outside of silat.

So yah.

Assume all you want and enjoy all the attention alrite.

Hahaha.

Some people are so funny lah.

Their own problems never settle but want to interfere with others.

Haha.

There's a Malay saying 'Jgn jage tepi kain orang'.

In English is simple, Don't Be A Busybody.

P.S. I still miss my 'Beyonce' alot.

And yah, you've made my day.

jusqu'à alors

2nd Half

2009-06-07T23:25:00.025+08:00

The aftermath from a good performance.

As promised.

Updated and plus pics.

Very tiring day lah seh.

Show was in the morning and yah we stayed for a WORKSHOP.

Workshop Tarian lah seh.

Haha.

Me, Pornstar, Smoovie and Pernicious.

Its was cool ah.

Didnt expect we could do it, but we did.

Hahahaha.

Not dat well ah but atleast we try to make it happen.

Achieved something my parents did last time.

And yah my parents are both dance partners lah seh.

Then decided to stick with Silat.

Gonna get my sleep now.

Shall do my routine tomorrow aite.

And before i forget.

SMOOVIE DIDNT MIND THE GAP!!!!

P.S. I miss my 'Beyonce'. I need my 'Beyonce'.

Hope its going fine.

jusqu'à alors

1st Half

2009-06-07T22:39:00.012+08:00

jusqu'à alors

Busy

2009-06-07T02:39:00.004+08:00

To the readers.

Been very busy lah.
And i dun even have time to blog.
Shall update again tonite aite.

I promise!!!

Yesterday is the opening ceromony for the Taman Warisan 4th anniversary.
Today is our show.
So yah.

Very hectic.
Very very tired.
Gonna get sum sleep now.
9am gonna meet the Team at Bugis MRT.

Gotta run now.

~Cheers

P.S. I need my 'Beyonce' badly. BAD!!!
Its all deep in the heart.

jusqu'à alors

This I Promise You

2009-06-05T01:05:00.002+08:00

The hair do after taking out all the rubber band.
I just love it lah.
All pulled back and abit fizzy.
The way i like it.
Ahakx.

"When the visions around you
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surround you
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength
I'll give you hope
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call
Was standing here all along

And I will take
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never...
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow,
Forever has now begun"
N Sync - This I Promise You

The full dress rehersal was done and over with.
Haiz.
Lucky sia Paman was'nt there.
If not we would here him saying the JIVE-ING word again.
Haiya.
*annoyed*

Its was ok lah.
Had to re-do over and over the steps and stuff.
Haiz.
Each time re-do, it will be a different step.
Haha.
And i mean all of us lah, not only me.
Haha.
But the food was nice.
But sumhow i tink because we were damn hungry lah.
Haha.

Got to run now.

~Cheers

p.s. Thanks for doing my hair. I love it lah. ahakx.

jusqu'à alors

Fight For Love

2009-06-04T00:39:00.002+08:00

"I'm ecstatic, I feel the magic, it's everlasting
I think that you were meant to be alive on this very night with me
I see it clearly, the dream you hear about
And never truly think it's realistic till it blows your mind
I never thought
I could understand
I was such in need and now
I finally see

I see that some people fight for love
They stick with it, just can't quit it
Some people hide from love
They run from it 'cause they don't want it

When you got a love and it's good like it should be
Makes you never wanna give it up
'Cause you know that some people die for love
And I believe it's true 'cause
I'd do the same for you"
Elliot Yamin - Fight For Love

I've got nothing to blog about today.
Been watching Micheal Jackson History with my siblings.
So yah.
Esok got demo, full dress rehersal lak tu at Taman Warisan.
Mcm waste time seh.
Not the rehersal ah.
But see Paman ah.
Haiya.
He and his Jive-ing.
Actually the 4 of us don't get what is he trying to say.
But from his actions, we understood what he's trying to tell us.
Which is blend in into the music and have fun.
Haiz.
Isnt it simple to say have fun ke, blend in ke.
But NO!!
He has to say Jive lah.

Kk got to run.

~Cheers

jusqu'à alors

Halo

2009-06-03T00:25:00.002+08:00

"Remember those walls i built.
Well, baby they're tumbling down.
And they didn't even put up a fight.
They didn't even make up a sound.

I found a way to let you in.
But i never really had a doubt.
Standing in the light of your halo.
I got my angel now.

It's like i've been awakened.
Every rule i had you breakin'.
It's the risk that i'm taking.
I ain't never gonna shut you out.

Everywhere i'm looking now.
I'm surrounded by your embrace.
baby i can see your halo.
You know you're my saving grace."
Beyonce - Halo

Trainings again.
Got my hair tied today.
But half oni.
Not enuff time lah to finish.
So yah sambung on Thursday.

Watching Mulan 2 now with Cayenne.
I so like the movie lah.
The first and the second lah.
Go and watch it.
Its good.

So dun disturb me.
Bubye.

~Cheers

jusqu'à alors

Pimp In Me

2009-06-01T23:32:00.004+08:00

"Lately i feel like i've been slippin.
And it's you that got me trippin.
I can't control myself when i'm around you, oh.
With any other i would've been done.
Love to left the next one.
But i just can't shake you off.

Cuz you got it all girl.
Body of a call girl.
With a mind of a teacher.
That's why i need ya.
I gotta let you know"
J. Holiday - Pimp In Me

Today ek.
Whatelse.
Training for demo.
Show will be on the 6 and 7 of June at Taman Warisan.

Hear this.

'Being at a lost for words, is a speech itself.
It may not be heard, But it can only be showed.
And only the right one is able to receive, and feel it.'

Going to bed now.

*yawns*

~Cheers

jusqu'à alors

WATCH THIS!!

2009-06-01T01:11:00.003+08:00

Nick Pitera - A Whole New World

People please watch this.

I was shock at first when i see this.

Better watch till the end and Enjoy.

~Cheers

jusqu'à alors

You

2009-05-31T22:01:00.002+08:00

"Girl it's you
It's been on my mind cause you've been gone too long
Girl it's you
I wish i could find to ask you what went wrong
Girl it's you
And with you it's where i know my heart belongs
Can't you see
There is only one for me.
And girl that's you."
-You - Elliot Yamin

Tired seh today.
Morning go to JBCC then went to Ayer Rajah CC for meeting and back to JBCC.
Haiz.
Wish to see my 'Beyonce' ah.
Dream girl lah kate kan.
Hahaha.

Picture this.
Walking down the beach at Bali in board shorts.
With 'Beyonce' in black and gold bikini.
Walking together, just the both of you.
The long walks on the beach.
Laughing, talking and held hands.
Legs hit by the waves.
Mixture sounds from the breeze and waves hitting the sand.
Hahahaha.

Fuhhhh!!
Festish lah seh.
hahahahahaha

As i was told dreams and wishes do come true.
So yah.

Hahahahaha.

*yawns*

~Cheers

jusqu'à alors

Be With You

2009-05-31T01:53:00.005+08:00

"And no one knows
What I'm into you
'Cause you'll never know what its like to walk in our shoes
And no one know, the things we've been through
Can never measure up to half of what I put you through
That's why we'll break through

Seems like every day that go by things are gettin' harder
Want to be the one that give you the whole enchilada
'Cause I know what my baby like, I lean you on that Prada
You ain't got to match with the shoes
All about knowing you I'm into doing things to keep her longer
Stickin' together forever, watch you grow stronger
That's the way it has to be, everything problem
Keepin' it always true

You are everything in my life see the joy you bring
And ain't no one I compare you to
And I know that you will never walk away from me no matter what
And thats why I plan to do the same thing for you
And I want you to know"
-Akon - Be With You

Trainings in the morning.
Then go makan at LJS with Pernicious, Chek Harun, Smoovie, Breastmilk and Slit Eyes.
Full lah seh.
Dah mcm break diet.

Then go gelanggang.
Already shagged and yah many-many things went thru my head.

ITS CRAZY LAH!!!!

After gelanggang went to arab street to Amirah's Grill for a good Sheesha session.
The company was Pernicious, Smoovie, Breastmilk, Wak Kilat, Abg Hasi and Smoovies' mate.
Talk loads of issues which is bothering us all.
And yah, trashed alot lah.
Damn alot.
Its more like a confession thingy ah.
They called it the NengNyno.
As in Boys confession nite out.
TINGTINGTING!!!!!!!

Then went to The Chevrons for a bowling game at Jurong.
Lucky Abg Hasi was driving so yah sent us home lah.
But we 'Matau' for the petrol lah.

After all the sessions are over and back home.
But probs were not gone.
Haiz.
It still reign my mind now.
I just hope that it would rest.

Overall, was good.
And yah...

Haiz

~Cheers

jusqu'à alors

Remedy

2009-05-30T00:57:00.005+08:00

"When i fall in love, i will take my time
There's no need to worry when i'm making up my mind
You can turn off the sun, but i'm still gonna shine
And i tell you why..."
- Jason Mraz - The Remedy

Everything forbidden is a sin and every sin's forbidden.
But everything which is forbidden is something great.
But is it worth??

I'm not sure myself.
Went to persisi today.
Played soccer with Abg Jul, Abg Warden, Abg Hasi and Old Man.

Tired lah seh, but was fun ah.
Laughed more than kicking the bloody ball.

*serious note*
Why do people have to judge??
Its wrong to judge rite??
Well i don't and i don't like when people do it.
We have a life and that's how we lead them.
Nak tonggang tebalik ke pape, it does'nt concern anyone.
Silat is silat.
Social life is personal.

Kakak, no matter what just be strong aite only we know the truth.
People can just blabber whatever they like eventhough they don't know.
I will be by your side aite.

+Policy.
Whatever happen then, happened.
What happens inside MUST remain inside.
Only WE know what are the details.
And details i mean FACTS.

Haiz.
Dunia dunia.
Maseh ade jugak org mcm nie ek, nak ckp pasal org.
FUHH!!
Nombor satu siak. Tapi diri sendiri tak tau.
Tengok cermin dulu beb!!

Old Man always say
"BIAR CAKAP SORANG-SORANG, JANGAN CAKAP PASAL ORG!"

Haiz.
Bile agak nye org2 nie akan sedar ek.
Jahat ke baik ke tu org nye pasal lah.
Idol tak idol.
Silat, silat lah.
Tak mo campor adok ah Silat ngan Social life org.

Apologising just wont do lah kan.
Too late ah people.
Sume org ade hati ngan perasaan seh.
Lain kali, pikir dulu seblom blog.

Memang ah lain org bace lain die nye pendapat.
But we blog seh. We write what we tink tapi agak2 ah.
Jangan sampai meng-aib-kan name and maruah org.
Kan dah tak de liew seh.
Haiya.
*smacks forehead*

Open your eyes and look at yourself first.
And please ah people.
DONT JUDGE OTHERS!!!!!!!
Last warning ek.

~Cheers

jusqu'à alors

2009-05-26T10:43:00.005+08:00

Im so like dunno what to blog sia.

Minds not here, cant think straight.

Slept late wake up early.

Its like a daily routine.

Training's today, got to burn sum shit today.

Tomorrow is the day lah.

Ahakz.

Shall update if there is sumting good.

Nyahahahaha.

~Cheers

P.S. : wish you're here now

I Dont Know

2009-05-25T17:14:00.003+08:00

Im searching high and low for a job and yah a decent one.

But none came back with any reply.

Im down now with life.

Tired with it too.

Haiz.

Wish i cud have everything the world could give???

~Cheers

Whats happening

2009-05-23T01:53:00.002+08:00

Guys im back and i'll try to update frequently.

Haiz.

No good lah.

Nothing to say.

Life is getting worse.

Hard to find a job.

Peopls not understanding.

People to my life is a bliss with no job.

All i got to say is..

Only god knows.

~Cheers

2008-10-19T02:43:00.000+08:00

"Everyday im getting sick and tired of you. i will leave, dont worry."

im useless

2008-10-12T22:36:00.002+08:00

the msg she send me.

"im home. fyi i dont like you to call my friends abt my wherebouts.i hate it."

that's it??
oh my.
the whole day and thats it.

REASON:
i cant get you thats why i asked your 'FRIENDS'.
you dont want to ans my calls.
you dont want to reply my msges.
you never tell me where are you and all.

did it ever pass your mind that im fucking worried??
did it ever pass your mind that im waiting for you details??
the least you do is appreciate it or could say nicely.

your fucking ex boyfriend is with you.
he is also your 'FRIEND'.
whatelse can i say.
ive got no say when it comes to your 'FRIENDS'.

i know your're mad at me.
but for what reason?
that you could'nt wake up for work the other day??
c'mon lah d.
im worried for you and your work.
i dont want you to get fired or anything.
all work is tiring.
you have to endure and soon you will get use to it.
its not that i didnt understand how you feel (as what you would say).
i dont know how to tell you ready.
im in camp and you're having time with the 'FRIENDS' of yours.
what does that makes me feel?
its hard being in here on weekends.
its even harder that you're outside with 'FRIENDS'.
im at the end of my wits.
but im still sticking no matter what.

jusqu'à alors

2008-10-12T21:35:00.003+08:00

why people like to take advantage??
she's mine.
only mine yesterday, today, tomorrow and forever.
so get that sorry ass of yours down the road.
this is not the first time sia.
and each time this happen, its even bigger.
no matter how heavy it is, i will lift it with all i have.

god!!
ive just realise something.
on how someone would do for love.

my dear Darlaa if u reading this,
ive to tell you that i love ya alot aite, no matter what i will always do.
the ups and downs we had, had been really hard on us.
but im determine that i will have to settle this chapter and moving to next.
6 mths more aite. wait for me aite.
trust me as much as i trust you aite.
4 years together is no joke aite.
im not losing it all. i will not.
the past had been hard enough for me to realise all of it.
and you too have to do something to make it happen aite.
love ya.

p.s. tag if you've read it aite

jusqu'à alors

god i need help

2008-10-12T16:41:00.001+08:00

life's full of surprises.
and i dont like it one bit.
it sucked.
im hating myself now.

this is so frustrating.
im in camp and she's out with her 'FRIENDS'.

do friends eat each other up??
or do friends help out, knowing the bad things happen yet they cover for them??
a friend in need, is a friend in deed.

i so fucking sad now.
tears flowing like water.

i love her ya.
alot.
but why is this shit happening to me?
what did i do to deserve this.

is it my past that made her like this?
ive long forgotten all of it.
ive changed.
and i feel great till this has had to happen.

i may lost her trust the last time.
never once in my life i didnt trust her.
since she turned 22, she had been this way.
i made her smiled on her special day.
but after that i receive all this shit.

what did i do to deserve all this?
ive sacrifice alot for her.
even leave my friends for her, just not to see her in pain.
can she do that for me?
i guess no.
am i 2nd to her friends?
than what am i to her.

i know where my all mistakes are.
i dont wish to repeat all of it.
ive had enough and regretted all of it.
and now she's doin it??
ive repent on all of my mistakes.
haiz.
it just sucked.

"Define for me - best friend, love & friendship."
"Sometimes, friendship replaces love and then, there is no space left for love"

what's that suppose to mean??
friends dont replace love.
this kinda friends you dont wish you had one.
i rather lose all of them then losing the one i love.
you dont fall in love everyday.
and you dont love someone the same as the rest.
its always different.

its coming to 4 years now and im not gonna let it go.
its not easy neither for you nor me.
but im still holding on cause of the thing we had.
its magical.
but yah, shit happens.
ive endured a long way and will still endure.
all im for is the truth and sincerity.
in both words and action.

im so down now.
im so helpless without her.

Dear god,
help me go thru this.
all this tests are from you.
and to you i pray for strength.
please protect her where ever she is.
im worried sick.
oh god, please help me go thru this.
only in you i seek for help and forgiveness.

my eyes are all red now.
my hearts all heavy.
my body feels weak.
my head is turning.
i need all the strength i cud get.

jusqu'à alors

2008-10-10T19:28:00.003+08:00

What a week.
Very tiring sia.
Work and work and work.

Got half day off today.
And its like ive been waiting for it.
But im on duty this sunday lah seh.
Even boredem.

Miss my bro and md ayul sia.
Both go Bintan for in camp training.
Haiz.

I miss my Wifey.
sobs sobs.
Dunno when sia can meet her.

And brather Aji.
Ur not forgotten.
But i have one thing to tell you.

MOS DAH TUTOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haahaahaa.
Anjckilipayey!!!

Im bored.

jusqu'à alors

Wifey

2008-10-08T13:30:00.002+08:00

Dear Wifey.

Happy 22nd bdae aite.

Hope to see ya later.

Actually, me and mama had planned where to bring you ready.

So yah, just be patient aite.

Love ya.

jusqu'à alors

forgive me aite lil sis.

2008-10-07T23:21:00.000+08:00

Dear God.

Ive made my sis upset.

Im Sorry.

I have too. its not that i want too.
Maybe its not cause of ur phone.
But its one of the factors ur not performing in school.
As much as i want you to excel in Silat, is as much on how i want u to excel in ur studies.

I had a bad time in school but i still went thru all of it.
I dun want you to get all the scoldings as what i receive.
One is enough.
I want you to learn the hard way.
And i hope, I HOPE you wud learn from it.

Forgive me if im harsh on you aite.

jusqu'à alors

fweh!!

2008-09-27T08:48:00.000+08:00

A duty which has had ended.
Last nite and yah duty again and also on sunday sia.
All scheduled dutys had to be reshuffled due to the IQC had to go tekong on monday.
Plus...
They are using my coys' storeman and stuff.
So yah had to cover for them.

The great thing is they dont use the Muslims next week duty.
So yah.
Something to smile about.

Going out later at abt 2 to view cameras with Wifey and Old Man at Causeway Point.
Tot of getting one for myself.
a DSLR maybe....

But yah it would cost a bomb lah.
But i think its worth it lah.
Wifey had been nagging to me abt the price and stuff.
And now im like really doing my thinking.

We will be going out later too.
Wifey and Milk Duct wants to get clutch bag.
Going to bugis first.
Then im not too sure of the plan yet.
Mr. Bones and BreastMilk will meet us later on.
Hmmm.

Md Teaser...
If the Orang Minyak was gay..
His first victim will be you lah.
Like u dont know.
He would be like, "Oh lord. Such a thight ass."
*chuckles*
If all women are that obedient.
I will be really glad and be smiling my ass off.
And MSG is not Salt aite.
It really shows lah.
Haha.
MSG makes ur head bald.
Better stay away from it.
If not, i'll help u tie some of the shroud on ur head.
*wink*
I tink the next time you do the researches,
They will teman you lah.
Ahakz.
Isnt that fun??
*smiles*

Enough of ghouls.
Giving me creeps all over.

Back on track.

Miss trainings lah.
The next time i will train is like next year after april.
To Teaser and BreastMilk, I promise to the both of you aite.
Will be a team k.
And BOTH of you better dont busted ah.

Training is fun lah when ur fit.
Haha.
Im telling it cause im like so unfit now.
Tak leh make it sia.

I think i'll do tarian at the moment.
Oh yes!!
I have siKERINTING to coach me.
Ahakz.

Eh you siKERINTING.
Lucky for ur dimples lah.
Im heads over heals for ur dimples.
It makes me go crazy lah.
Haha.
Yet to see you again aite.

And to my dearest Mutton.
I have a "MISSION" for you lah.
I'll tell you soon.
Ahakz.

Read this qoute.
"When Fascism comes to America, it will be wrapped in the flag and carrying the cross."

Fascism - a governmental system led by a dictator having complete power,

forcibly suppressing opposition and criticism,

regimenting all industry, commerce, etc.,

and emphasizing an aggressive nationalism and often racism.

What are the Americans doing sia.

For god sake.

I think that its not when the Fascism comes.

It already did ah.

It also state that IT will be wrapped in the flag, which i have no issues,

and carrying the cross, which im unhappy.

Whatever happens to the Muslims there??

Its bullshit lah.

Did they foget that Islam is the one and only religion which is true.

I agree that Christianity have the similarities to what we Muslims believed in.

But Man cahnge the Bible.

Man changed the believes in the Bible.

Which made it different from the Qu'ran.

Why do you pray for the son of god, but, not to god himself??

Why must there be sculptures and all??

You know how god looks like??

NO!!

No one does.

Maybe when you die lah.

I didnt say you will.

I said maybe cause im not too sure myself.

Look at the Presidential Candidate, Barack Obama.

His father is a muslim.

And he is a christian.

He even said that he would not own up or be a muslim like his father is.

He said he is happy to be a christian.

Im just sad for the father lah.

Di keji lah seh.

Haiz.

My deepest heartfelt for him.

Did Barack Obama realise that all Muslim countries owned their own oil??

And why till now the US is at war in Iraq??

They are going for war due to the oil for goodness sake.

These people cant get any in their head.

All they want is power

Same goes in Silat.

Everyone wants to show their power.

When you get a higher post and when your say counts,

they will always wanna call they shot.

Without realising if its good or bad for the athletes.

We athletes dont have the say.
Since when we had welfare.
Maybe they claim that we did.
But when??
Do we know when we will get our money as promised??
Yes they work it out so that we could get it.
After all thats our hard earn medal which entitled us to the grants and stuff.
But when we ask, they will go on saying,
We dont appriciate them and what they had did or better what the federation did for them.
The accoms lah, food lah and more.
Im numb to it all ready.

It was Passion.
It was.
But passion comes from the gifts we get.
Gifts - as in money or any sort.
That gives us the drive and the strive to achieve more.
It takes money for the journey.
Its not that bodek2 bus driver dapat naik free.
Or even train or cab.
Haiz.
They cant just tink that, we younglings need money more than them.
We dont have a monthly stability.
We depend on that money and our parents.
When will they learn.
Many stop being athletes due to this.
I think even the best call it quits.

Aites better get going now.
Gotta get home and sleep.
Meeting Wifey later.
Taking caring people.

jusqu'à alors

cocky

2008-09-22T23:05:00.003+08:00

Im doing my duty today and it suck.
In the office only for goodness sake.
Freaking cold sia.
You know what happens when its cold??
*evil laughter*
Adawiyah You know it dont you.
Hahaha.

Im with this bugger name Roy.
We've been like talking cock for like ever since.
Its a laughing stock here.

Adawiyah...

You're still and Ass!!

Haha.

Good News!!
I got off for the whole week, next week.
Im like so looking forward to it.
Haha.

And Now....
Im like so bored now sia.
Jesus Christ-sing.

Hmmm.
Md Teaser dont you dare forget.
I'll screw you to the flag pole.
*chuckles*

K lah im out of things to write today.
Taking Caring

jusqu'à alors

Yikes!!

2008-09-20T15:27:00.007+08:00

It takes a hen to make an egg.
So which one is first the hen or the egg.
Life is so delicate.
Feel alot of pain when just a small splinter pierced thru a finger.
We human are prone to lotsa injuries.

With all the pain we could feel, god made pleasures for us.
Loads of them.
It can be mentally, physically or even sexually pleasures.
To think of it, sumtimes its just not fair.
Hmmmm.

When you have what u have, you still want more.
Cant we, humans, be thankful and appriciative of what we already have and not asking for more??

And Adawiyah. You ass!!!!

Hahahah.

This AssWipe had been on my thin nerves for like forever.
And its Oh My God on my nerves.
Im shivering inside.
Bahahaha.

Its just fun with the peeps ard.

Teaser, Budak Hyper, Pornstar, Milk Duct and not forgettin Mutton.

Ya'll the people who made my life even more interesting.

Not forgetting the love of my life, Naya.

I dunno where would i be without her help.

She and her poses at work made me laugh each day.

One Of The Many Poses At Work!

If its not for her.
I really dont know whats gonna happen to me.
Haiz.
But thank god lah im like this.
*chuckles*

Not forgetting the rest.
Pernicious, Deadfamous, Slit Eyes, Camel, Minx, Gemok and most important MummyDy.
Cheers aite peeps.
Just remember anything you do just dont get caught.
Ahakz.

Aite-aite
Im off.

jusqu'à alors

Again

2008-09-20T01:55:00.000+08:00

Hey people.
Im blogging back again.
Got busy lah the past month plus.
My coy running this PS & CSM course.
And its killing lah.

The next course will be on the 27 oct.
And new batch of trainees.
Every batch is the same.
They keep complaining to the Instructors bout us, Permstaff.
But we,Permstaff, always kept quiet.
Haiz.
Its as if we dont learn from the same mistakes.
Its a very hard job.
We always have to do the dirty linen.
Covering for them and stuff.
But in the end, our ass get buttered.

Its hard when after each course we got these so called lectures.
The bad thing bout this lectures is that.
Nothing good comes out.
Its always vulgarities.

Like it or not still have to take it.
Ive got bout 7 months left.
Im just enduring this torture.
Im just praying that it will go on smoothly.
But sure its a pain in my ass.

Nothing is good.
The only thing good is......
The ORD date.
Haha

K lah people.
Thats the end for today.
Update soon.

AND IM SICK!!!
Haha.
Mutton you know it dont you.
Ahakz

2008-08-19T14:44:00.004+08:00

This blog's owner is currently on DEAD mode. I wonder when will he update. So much for being busy when he's actually just sitting and rotting in his office.

AIR CONDITIONED SOME MORE!

I think he must have been dreaming of THAT day when he got it. Got it? No? HE GOT IT LAH SEII.

Hahahaha. Sorry, bro. I just had to say it. HAHAHAHA. Can't help it.

HE GOT IT!!!!

Oh, and this is the Mutton speaking. *winks*

Tired..

2008-08-07T20:05:00.005+08:00

Been really really really tired today.
Got duty summore.
Haiya.
Im like to the mendak-king sia.

Today.
Collected the 10 840 signal sets.
Heavy sia.
If its only 1, then its ok ah.
But 10 sia.
In the army, higher rankings just pushes u around like no ones buisness.
If they tink they need u here the call.
And if they tink that ur not needed, they just chuck u one side.
Well for all they wanna know we are also damn HUMANS!!!
We NSF are paid peanuts compared to the work load we do.
Im like being paid $400++ for a Lance Corporal.
Im an Armskote man summore.
Carry the 100s of SAR 21.
The 15s GPMG.
The 10s 84MM.
The 15s M16 M203.
The 19s SAW.
Haiz.
Its freaking unfair lah.
I have friends who's in the Police and CD.
And their pay for the same rank as mine is like WHAO!!!!!
Haiz.
If i get that kinda pay i would be like a Peasant.
I do get broke ok although im in camp all the time.
My dailies are running out sia.
I bet u guys know what is it.
Haha

K lah people im outz.
Ive distressed myself out ready.
Haha.
Catch ya up sum other time.

~Cheers

IM BACK!!!

2008-08-06T18:10:00.000+08:00

Haha.

People-people..
Great announcement.

Haha.

IM BACK!!!

Am back and all the credit goes to my dearest Mutton.

To all whom had been bugging me to update,
And yes ive updated and my first entry since my ops.

Haha.

And you guys KNOW who you are.

For now i cant wait till next week.
Hahaha.
Im going fishing!!!
Its a long while now.
Thinking bout it makes my whole hands going itchy.
Favourite passtime lah kate-kan.

Haha.

Ive to end this here now.
My cuzzie who is 5years old is bugging me to watch with him this show on youtube called MONSTER QUEST.

He's bugging me now each time i type my 1ST ENTRY.
Haha.
1st entry lah kate kan.
Haha.

See YOU guys whenever i see YOU aite.

~Cheers

2008-08-06T17:18:00.002+08:00

Hello? *clears throat*

This is the Mutton speaking. I hereby would like to proudly announce the official opening of my greatest arse, Lutot Bengkok's blog to the blogger community.

May you find his horny entries a pleasant read.

Thank you. *winks*

P.S: YOU STILL OWE ME DOUGHNUTS, asshole.

2008-07-30T14:09:00.000+08:00

Testing, testing 1, 2, 3.

This is the Million Dollar Mutton writing. Currently the owner of this blog is on hiatus due to certain call of nature and he will be back on track once he's satisfied with this layout.

Pray for my life.

P.S: I want my doughnuts.